Take me back to when we first met.I traveled half way around the world.Funny enough you were late.But I would have easily waited a lifetime.
My memory recalls the wait in between your calls.The butterflies fluttering in my tummy, the polluted road.The stuffy weather outside a mall and the beggars just outside the door.
Finally you arrive and nothing else matters.My eyes confirms what my imagination conjured up.My first words are left unsaid .Today my last words will be the same.
Why does it have to end when we have just begun.Things will only get better, there is so much yet to be done.It’s only a stage in your life where only a little bit of happiness has crept in.
You smiled & I smiled!! The world seemed so small! It was your hands!! It was your touch!! It was you smile! It was your love!! No... No.. No.. Do I get to say that it was "Love". It was like I was holding the whole world in my little eyes for a while!! Am so glad I'll get to see it for the rest of my life!!
OUR FIRST MEET!! WILL YOU EVEN FORGET???
Tuesday, June 3, 2008
Saturday, May 24, 2008
A little pop-up out of mind!
Yes this is personal and yes it is true.This is my experience that I am sharing with you.
Am sure that I WILL MAKE SENSE, CUZ AM WRITING ABOUT YOU!
A bond that sparked instantaneously ,much like just born baby!
Of course those that insinuated such did follow the dance.
We had found one another, knew it was different this time.
The "Yes" to her Questions were self-explanatory!
Life would charge in and test our power.
Tempted and taunted to see who would cower.Am glad this happened, the first of the clues.
A weakness exposed and a hint of the long over dues.
The face I began to recognize was that of a stranger.
I saw it clearly and I knew I was feeling like a kid who just a real "power- ranger".
Why today of all days to write this for all to see?Perhaps, maybe it means I can at last be free.
Am so much relieved after writing this! Am just out of this "disturbing thing" that happened today(Partly yesterday).
Thanks to "Büyükkökten" the true founder of Gtalk and Google! Should i thank anyone else?? Maybe I will! :)
& Aparna - It is! :)
Need HELP!
If you're gonna think you're good enough to save yourself with all the money you have!! Listen to me!! I've got something for you!
Being poor is knowing exactly how much everything costs.
Being poor is getting angry at your kids for asking for all the crap they see on TV.
Being poor is having to keep buying cars for 5 lakhs because they're what you can afford, and then having the cars break down on you,
because there's not an 5 lakhs car in Jarkhand that's worth a damn.
Being poor is hoping the toothache goes away.
Being poor is knowing your kid goes to friends' houses but never has friends over to yours.
Being poor is going to the restroom before you get in the school lunch line so your friends will be ahead of you and won't hear you say "I get
free lunch" when you get to the cashier.
Being poor is living next to the freeway.
Being poor is coming back to the car with your children in the back seat, clutching that box of stupid same old " rasam sadam" you just
bought and trying to think of a way to make the kids understand that the box has to last.
Being poor is wondering if your well-off sibling is lying when he says he doesn't mind when you ask for help.
Being poor is off-brand toys.
Being poor is a heater in only one room of the house.
Being poor is knowing you can't leave 50 /- Rs on the coffee table when your friends are around.
Being poor is hoping your kids don't have a growth spurt.
Being poor is stealing meat from the store, frying it up before your mom gets home and then telling her she doesn't have make dinner tonight
because you're not hungry anyway.
Being poor is Goodwill underwear.
Being poor is not enough space for everyone who lives with you.
Being poor is feeling the glued soles tear off your supermarket shoes when you run around the playground.
Being poor is your kid's school being the one with the 15-year-old textbooks and no playground.
Being poor is thinking 100/- an hour is a really good deal.
Being poor is relying on people who don't give a damn about you.
Being poor is an overnight shift under florescent lights.
Being poor is finding the letter your mom wrote to your dad, begging him for the child support.
Being poor is a bathtub you have to empty into the toilet.
Being poor is stopping the car to take a lamp from a stranger's trash.
Being poor is making lunch for your kid when a cockroach skitters over the bread, and you looking over to see if your kid saw.
Being poor is people angry at you just for walking around in the mall.
Being poor is not taking the job because you can't find someone you trust to watch your kids.
Being poor is the police busting into the apartment right next to yours.
Being poor is not talking to that girl because she'll probably just laugh at your clothes.
Being poor is hoping you'll be invited for dinner.
Being poor is a sidewalk with lots of brown glass on it.
Being poor is people thinking they know something about you by the way you talk.
Being poor is hating that 10/- Rs raise on fuel.
Being poor is your kid's teacher assuming you don't have any books in your home.
Being poor is crying when you drop the little food on the floor.
Being poor is knowing you work as hard as anyone, anywhere.
Being poor is people surprised to discover you're not actually stupid.
Being poor is people surprised to discover you're not actually lazy.
Being poor is a six-hour wait in an emergency room with a sick child asleep on your lap.
Being poor is never buying anything someone else hasn't bought first.
Being poor is having to live with choices you didn't know you made when you were 14 years old.
Being poor is getting tired of people wanting you to be grateful.
Being poor is knowing you're being judged.
Being poor is deciding that it's all right to base a relationship on shelter.
Being poor is knowing you really shouldn't spend that buck on a Lotto ticket.
Being poor is hoping the register lady will spot you the dime.
Being poor is feeling helpless when your child makes the same mistakes you did, and won't listen to you beg them against doing so.
Being poor is a cough that doesn't go away.
Being poor is knowing where the shelter is.
Being poor is people who have never been poor wondering why you choose to be so.
Being poor is knowing how hard it is to stop being poor.
Being poor is seeing how few options you have.
Being poor is running in place.
Being poor is people wondering why you didn't leave.
Being POOR is atleast possible once in your Lifetime!!
Help the POOR.. Please!
Being poor is knowing exactly how much everything costs.
Being poor is getting angry at your kids for asking for all the crap they see on TV.
Being poor is having to keep buying cars for 5 lakhs because they're what you can afford, and then having the cars break down on you,
because there's not an 5 lakhs car in Jarkhand that's worth a damn.
Being poor is hoping the toothache goes away.
Being poor is knowing your kid goes to friends' houses but never has friends over to yours.
Being poor is going to the restroom before you get in the school lunch line so your friends will be ahead of you and won't hear you say "I get
free lunch" when you get to the cashier.
Being poor is living next to the freeway.
Being poor is coming back to the car with your children in the back seat, clutching that box of stupid same old " rasam sadam" you just
bought and trying to think of a way to make the kids understand that the box has to last.
Being poor is wondering if your well-off sibling is lying when he says he doesn't mind when you ask for help.
Being poor is off-brand toys.
Being poor is a heater in only one room of the house.
Being poor is knowing you can't leave 50 /- Rs on the coffee table when your friends are around.
Being poor is hoping your kids don't have a growth spurt.
Being poor is stealing meat from the store, frying it up before your mom gets home and then telling her she doesn't have make dinner tonight
because you're not hungry anyway.
Being poor is Goodwill underwear.
Being poor is not enough space for everyone who lives with you.
Being poor is feeling the glued soles tear off your supermarket shoes when you run around the playground.
Being poor is your kid's school being the one with the 15-year-old textbooks and no playground.
Being poor is thinking 100/- an hour is a really good deal.
Being poor is relying on people who don't give a damn about you.
Being poor is an overnight shift under florescent lights.
Being poor is finding the letter your mom wrote to your dad, begging him for the child support.
Being poor is a bathtub you have to empty into the toilet.
Being poor is stopping the car to take a lamp from a stranger's trash.
Being poor is making lunch for your kid when a cockroach skitters over the bread, and you looking over to see if your kid saw.
Being poor is people angry at you just for walking around in the mall.
Being poor is not taking the job because you can't find someone you trust to watch your kids.
Being poor is the police busting into the apartment right next to yours.
Being poor is not talking to that girl because she'll probably just laugh at your clothes.
Being poor is hoping you'll be invited for dinner.
Being poor is a sidewalk with lots of brown glass on it.
Being poor is people thinking they know something about you by the way you talk.
Being poor is hating that 10/- Rs raise on fuel.
Being poor is your kid's teacher assuming you don't have any books in your home.
Being poor is crying when you drop the little food on the floor.
Being poor is knowing you work as hard as anyone, anywhere.
Being poor is people surprised to discover you're not actually stupid.
Being poor is people surprised to discover you're not actually lazy.
Being poor is a six-hour wait in an emergency room with a sick child asleep on your lap.
Being poor is never buying anything someone else hasn't bought first.
Being poor is having to live with choices you didn't know you made when you were 14 years old.
Being poor is getting tired of people wanting you to be grateful.
Being poor is knowing you're being judged.
Being poor is deciding that it's all right to base a relationship on shelter.
Being poor is knowing you really shouldn't spend that buck on a Lotto ticket.
Being poor is hoping the register lady will spot you the dime.
Being poor is feeling helpless when your child makes the same mistakes you did, and won't listen to you beg them against doing so.
Being poor is a cough that doesn't go away.
Being poor is knowing where the shelter is.
Being poor is people who have never been poor wondering why you choose to be so.
Being poor is knowing how hard it is to stop being poor.
Being poor is seeing how few options you have.
Being poor is running in place.
Being poor is people wondering why you didn't leave.
Being POOR is atleast possible once in your Lifetime!!
Help the POOR.. Please!
Thursday, May 22, 2008
In the name of "Love"!!
I make sense, When I write! Yes i do!
This time its "LOVE"
Love is...
Love is a beautiful word, but what does it mean? Many say they know, some think they know, and others give up trying to know. I can't define it for you. Let's just say, I'm a believer of LOVE. You have to define it for yourself. It's meaning is as various as the persons who uses it.
The word love has been used, abused, and taken in vain. It is so powerful that it make some people afraid to try it. So, they journey alone by circumstance or choice. Love makes you naive, vunerable, and some people prey on that. For predators, the thrill is in the hunt to steal, kill, and destroy. They give love a bad name.
Some people try to master it as if riding a bull or a ferrari. For others, they are more choosy, subltle & they use powders & lotions to make things work. Still some try to capture love and hold it prisoner. They fight for it, will kill and die for it. Whether it is for their country, or individuals. They'll say it was all done in the name of love. You can't use love that way. Won't they ever learn? Maybe, maybe not.
They say all is fair in love and war. To me it's like a thin line that has gotten blurred. But isn't it funny how love seems to have more and more tags that follow it. Like, love and peace, love and hate, love and war, love and money, love and country, love and humanity, get my drift? Love can stand on it's own.
Nothing can compare to the love of your higher power.
For me, "Music" is "Love". Thats my higher power!
In my experiences, of this lifetime, the ultimate is the love that strangers, who don't know you, won't judge you by the color of your skin, or the shape of your body, but will go out of their way to help you, give you praise, a hello, wink, smile, a two thumbs up, a pat on the back, an email, a phone call, a hug, and a kiss. And you still don't believe in love? It happened to me, It would have happened to you as well, It will happen to everyone! Because, Love can never be stopped
I didn't write this to define love,
but to try to make sense of it all.
I employ you to open up your heart, your mind and let love in.
I know it's scary.
I know you've been hurt, I have too.
I'll suffice to say, however you define it, it always is and always will be, your choice.
So, either put up or shut up.
Love, Just is!!
Am I makin sense?? * SMILES*
This time its "LOVE"
Love is...
Love is a beautiful word, but what does it mean? Many say they know, some think they know, and others give up trying to know. I can't define it for you. Let's just say, I'm a believer of LOVE. You have to define it for yourself. It's meaning is as various as the persons who uses it.
The word love has been used, abused, and taken in vain. It is so powerful that it make some people afraid to try it. So, they journey alone by circumstance or choice. Love makes you naive, vunerable, and some people prey on that. For predators, the thrill is in the hunt to steal, kill, and destroy. They give love a bad name.
Some people try to master it as if riding a bull or a ferrari. For others, they are more choosy, subltle & they use powders & lotions to make things work. Still some try to capture love and hold it prisoner. They fight for it, will kill and die for it. Whether it is for their country, or individuals. They'll say it was all done in the name of love. You can't use love that way. Won't they ever learn? Maybe, maybe not.
They say all is fair in love and war. To me it's like a thin line that has gotten blurred. But isn't it funny how love seems to have more and more tags that follow it. Like, love and peace, love and hate, love and war, love and money, love and country, love and humanity, get my drift? Love can stand on it's own.
Nothing can compare to the love of your higher power.
For me, "Music" is "Love". Thats my higher power!
In my experiences, of this lifetime, the ultimate is the love that strangers, who don't know you, won't judge you by the color of your skin, or the shape of your body, but will go out of their way to help you, give you praise, a hello, wink, smile, a two thumbs up, a pat on the back, an email, a phone call, a hug, and a kiss. And you still don't believe in love? It happened to me, It would have happened to you as well, It will happen to everyone! Because, Love can never be stopped
I didn't write this to define love,
but to try to make sense of it all.
I employ you to open up your heart, your mind and let love in.
I know it's scary.
I know you've been hurt, I have too.
I'll suffice to say, however you define it, it always is and always will be, your choice.
So, either put up or shut up.
Love, Just is!!
Am I makin sense?? * SMILES*
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
Dependency or deliquency??!?
I took some time to write this up! I know how much this is gonna mean to you guys! If you've had a relationship before, Guess its too late for you to read this, but still you can learn stuff . For all those who haven't been in a relationship before! This is my write up to gaurd people!
I have been thinking about the relationship dependency lately, but to give a brief overview of it, it’s the case where someone gets involved in a relationship just because he is in need of a partner and not because he truly loves that person. What's really concerning is that most of the relationships people undergo are a result of pure dependency and not of a product of real love. That’s why many of them end with break-ups.
For instance, I had this friend of mine who always hated women [Pretenders]. He met a girl in his college who looks really beautiful. He somehow managed to get in touch with that girl.
That girl seemed to have come from a well doing family. This friend of mine is a "T- kadai OC dhum Case". Let me make this ina nut-shell. They both liked each other, this guy was getting rich day by day! All of a sudden, the girl was never seen in college! Everybody kept asking the guy about the girl, he was pschyed and had no idea about what happened to the girl.
One fine day, the girl came to the college with her dad to give her marriage invitations to all the professors. This guy felt really bad and again started up with that " I hate girls" phobia ! I spoke to that girl on the farewell day and I was asking her about the whole relationship thing.
She seemed very calm, relaxed and amazingly charming! She simply said, she din't wanna get into a relationship at all. Since, she already knew about the guy who always hated girls. All she had in her mind was security. So, she thought it was a better idea getting friendly with some nut case like him. She also told me that she liked the guys attitude towards girl.
Now, they both are really happy! That girl's settled with her husband in Dallas, TEXAS. The friend of mine is working with Cognizant Tech Services.[ He doesn't even worship feminine gods :) ] . I know this story has got nothing to do with "Breaking-up" at all. But, If you've read this clearly, you'd known how much can a person's feeling of insecurity can make things worse.
What if that guy had to be serious?? What if that guy had committed suicide?? What if that girls dad had watched "Kaadhal movie""??
When we face a lot of problems, our need for someone to help us out and to take care of us is much greater, and that’s why most relationships that start at times like these are just a result of dependency and not real love, and that’s why some of them may end with break-ups.When you experience a time of disappointment and uncertainty, just be aware that you are more vulnerable to falling in love with someone that you don’t really love. Just knowing this will help you put some control on your emotions until you get over your problems.
If I tell you that you have full control in choosing your partner in life I would be fooling you. So instead of giving you rigid steps to follow, I am just going to give you some guidelines that you should heed in order to increase your chance of a having a successful relationship that is based on true love and not on pure need:
* Take special care not to fall in love with someone you just need whenever you're feeling vulnerable and in need of help. It'd be far better to hook up with someone when you're in great condition and feeling good about yourself because you will be much less dependent and so probably really do love this person.
* Take the example of the guy/girl who lacked self confidence; if that person knew for some reason that he is going to develop self-confidence sometime in the future, he/she would've guessed that his/her relation will terminate sooner or later. So when you pick a partner make sure to pick someone who can sustain the personal changes you are going to undergo in the future.
* Understand the difference between love and relationship dependency. This is the only way you can avoid falling in the trap of loving someone just because you need him or her.
After all this!! A piece of information about "ME". I haven't found my "Miss. My Kind" yet. Maybe i should really smile at some girl! Yeah, Itz been long since I smiled at someone!
Itz really hard to believe that a SMILE can fix anything! Try doing it!
Peace! :)
I have been thinking about the relationship dependency lately, but to give a brief overview of it, it’s the case where someone gets involved in a relationship just because he is in need of a partner and not because he truly loves that person. What's really concerning is that most of the relationships people undergo are a result of pure dependency and not of a product of real love. That’s why many of them end with break-ups.
For instance, I had this friend of mine who always hated women [Pretenders]. He met a girl in his college who looks really beautiful. He somehow managed to get in touch with that girl.
That girl seemed to have come from a well doing family. This friend of mine is a "T- kadai OC dhum Case". Let me make this ina nut-shell. They both liked each other, this guy was getting rich day by day! All of a sudden, the girl was never seen in college! Everybody kept asking the guy about the girl, he was pschyed and had no idea about what happened to the girl.
One fine day, the girl came to the college with her dad to give her marriage invitations to all the professors. This guy felt really bad and again started up with that " I hate girls" phobia ! I spoke to that girl on the farewell day and I was asking her about the whole relationship thing.
She seemed very calm, relaxed and amazingly charming! She simply said, she din't wanna get into a relationship at all. Since, she already knew about the guy who always hated girls. All she had in her mind was security. So, she thought it was a better idea getting friendly with some nut case like him. She also told me that she liked the guys attitude towards girl.
Now, they both are really happy! That girl's settled with her husband in Dallas, TEXAS. The friend of mine is working with Cognizant Tech Services.[ He doesn't even worship feminine gods :) ] . I know this story has got nothing to do with "Breaking-up" at all. But, If you've read this clearly, you'd known how much can a person's feeling of insecurity can make things worse.
What if that guy had to be serious?? What if that guy had committed suicide?? What if that girls dad had watched "Kaadhal movie""??
When we face a lot of problems, our need for someone to help us out and to take care of us is much greater, and that’s why most relationships that start at times like these are just a result of dependency and not real love, and that’s why some of them may end with break-ups.When you experience a time of disappointment and uncertainty, just be aware that you are more vulnerable to falling in love with someone that you don’t really love. Just knowing this will help you put some control on your emotions until you get over your problems.
If I tell you that you have full control in choosing your partner in life I would be fooling you. So instead of giving you rigid steps to follow, I am just going to give you some guidelines that you should heed in order to increase your chance of a having a successful relationship that is based on true love and not on pure need:
* Take special care not to fall in love with someone you just need whenever you're feeling vulnerable and in need of help. It'd be far better to hook up with someone when you're in great condition and feeling good about yourself because you will be much less dependent and so probably really do love this person.
* Take the example of the guy/girl who lacked self confidence; if that person knew for some reason that he is going to develop self-confidence sometime in the future, he/she would've guessed that his/her relation will terminate sooner or later. So when you pick a partner make sure to pick someone who can sustain the personal changes you are going to undergo in the future.
* Understand the difference between love and relationship dependency. This is the only way you can avoid falling in the trap of loving someone just because you need him or her.
After all this!! A piece of information about "ME". I haven't found my "Miss. My Kind" yet. Maybe i should really smile at some girl! Yeah, Itz been long since I smiled at someone!
Itz really hard to believe that a SMILE can fix anything! Try doing it!
Peace! :)
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
"Things left Unsaid"
I have met quite a lota people in my life that I've learnt so many things! Although, I've been around with many people in my life so far, only few of them have made it " Worth a meet". I wanted to tell them a few words, which i couldn't. Im taking a chance now! Maybe, they'll get to read this someday! Becoz, Words never die, unless they're left "Unsaid". Bitter but fact!!
"If there's one thing I believe, its that I don’t know anything and anything can happen."
- To Deepika, My first crush!
"Sometimes I pick my nose. There you have it."
- To Srikanth who've always been a disturbing charactere in my school!
" I'd love to bunk all your classes, Im sure, i'l do well without them"
- To the school Principle- Vasantha Jairaman, When she thought that I was a brainless spoilt brat!
" Im trying to keep it positive and play it cool, shoot up the playground and tell the kids to stay in school" - To all my juniors school mates when i passed out a school.
"I can't change the way I am ... but if I offended you, good. Cause I still don't give a fuck"
-To few of my "So called friends" in GOA.
"Exit light - Enter night" -To "Myself" when i used to stay at home all the time"
"Fuck it all and fucking no regrets" - To Althea, Now my ex-girlfriend!
"I've just been myself " - To all those who "Loved" me!
" Take a look to the sky, just before you die - It's the last time you will" - To whomsoever it may concern! :)
" I will Live- I always will" - To Myself!
"Karthik" bless you all!!!
"If there's one thing I believe, its that I don’t know anything and anything can happen."
- To Deepika, My first crush!
"Sometimes I pick my nose. There you have it."
- To Srikanth who've always been a disturbing charactere in my school!
" I'd love to bunk all your classes, Im sure, i'l do well without them"
- To the school Principle- Vasantha Jairaman, When she thought that I was a brainless spoilt brat!
" Im trying to keep it positive and play it cool, shoot up the playground and tell the kids to stay in school" - To all my juniors school mates when i passed out a school.
"I can't change the way I am ... but if I offended you, good. Cause I still don't give a fuck"
-To few of my "So called friends" in GOA.
"Exit light - Enter night" -To "Myself" when i used to stay at home all the time"
"Fuck it all and fucking no regrets" - To Althea, Now my ex-girlfriend!
"I've just been myself " - To all those who "Loved" me!
" Take a look to the sky, just before you die - It's the last time you will" - To whomsoever it may concern! :)
" I will Live- I always will" - To Myself!
"Karthik" bless you all!!!
Saturday, May 3, 2008
Why do children look cute to us???
We find every child a cute child. We enjoy looking at the children, love playing with them and share their happiness and innocence with joy. Why? Is it only because the child is a lovely child in looks? That is not true. We mainly enjoy being with children and love them because they are honest. We love children because of their innocence. We love children because we are sure that child will not judge us and that we can be totally free with the children without any fear.Let us examine our relationship with grown ups. With most of our friends and acquaintances, we are guarded in our approach. We think before speaking. We try to hide most of our true feelings and try to act in a way that we believe will maintain a make believe relationship. How many times, have you thought of shouting at someone, but have refrained from doing so? How many times have you wished to laugh at someone's dressing sense but have stopped that laughter? How many times have you really wanted to tell someone few things but stopped midway worried that it may spoil the relationship? Please think about the artificial way in which we relate with grown up people. We do all this because we are unsure of ourselves. We are unsure about the other person's reaction and intelligence and we are unsure about the relationship.With a child nothing of this kind exists. We are free to express ourselves in as many ways as we wish, without any reservations. That is why we love children and call them cute.
Wanna look cute?? Be yourself!!
Wanna look cute?? Be yourself!!
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